I Received An Answer

Since this afternoon, I was asking myself the same questions over and over again. I can't find the right answer. Or maybe, at the back of my mind, I knew what it was however, I denied to accept the idea.

I tried where I even reached the point of becoming to look like a pathetic loser just to shrug what I feel for how many months now. There was a sense of guilt, longing and some regret. I don't know if they are valid or not or if those emotions really make sense to begin with. All i know is that I don't like these feelings to linger any longer and affect my well being.

Later tonight, I was busy watching videos from Tiktok when I encountered an account who post snippets from the Book of Answers. Two seconds at the video, I paused and silently think of the question I had in mind.

I asked if this what I feel is maybe a mere affection and if I am just haunted by what ifs. I uttered the unanswered question. Should I start to move on?

Lo and behold! The answer came.

I could kiss the account holder at that time for knocking me some sense. I am grateful for bringing me back with the reality and harshness of life. I am not sure if this is purely coincidence or it is the sign I am waiting for but one thing is definitely provided here. I was given an answer and an action should follow. I just hope it will come to me sooner.

And to you, who became my favorite person in the world once upon a time, you may not read this but I am grabbing this chance to say thank you too but maybe in our next lifetime you will be brave enough to fight for me and you have the courage to stand on what you have promise me.